Ever get the feeling that your skills are worth nothing to anyone? Yeah. Me too.
Ever since work ditched our camera operators, I’ve been trying to get out of Madison, but then the economy crashed and the jobs dried up. Now I’m facing the fact that my job is no longer a director but a code monkey who operates a computer that tells the equipment how to make the newscast run. I can do it just fine, but it’s not directing. It’s not making TV. It’s not what I want to do.
In fact, I don’t want to even be in news at all. But I’m in a catch-22. I want to work in entertainment, but I don’t know anyone in it. Or at a production house, or network, or new media company, etc. I have no network because I have no clue why. I know all sorts of people around the country, but no one seems to be able or willing to help me. Not without suggesting “well just move here.” Ok fine, but you’ll have a job waiting for me if I do? Which is usually met with “no.” Which I can’t do. I’ve worked in news for 6 years. I have no savings. I live paycheck-to-paycheck. I can’t get ahead even when I try.
And what about my backup plan? Computers always was my backup, but I’m finding more-and-more that 1) I’m not happy working in IT and 2) Technology has evolved faster than I could keep up with it. I’ve seen ads for jobs that say HTML, CSS and several other 3-to-4 letter acronyms that I’ve never heard of. It’s thoroughly frustrating.
Everything is right now.
I just feel like for all I’ve invested, I’m getting no return. That my skills aren’t and never will be again in demand.
So what do I do? School? With what money?
And there in lies my mega problem…. I borrowed too much to put me through college the first time, so now, I can’t afford to 1) pay that off and 2) even think about going back to college for something different…or film school…or whatever.
Oh…and here’s my resume & reel.