Just so you know…


Hey guys,

I’m writing to you with an update I wish I wasn’t giving you, but it’s important and I’m used to sharing important events in my life with you. Usually when things happen to me, I process them and then write music about how I feel, and you hear it much later. This is something my family and I thought you should know about now.

For Christmas this year, I asked my mom that one of her gifts to me be her going to the doctor to get screened for any health issues, just to ease some worries of mine. She agreed, and went in to get checked. There were no red flags and she felt perfectly fine, but she did it just to get me and my brother off her case about it.

The results came in, and I’m saddened to tell you that my mom has been diagnosed with cancer. I’d like to keep the details of her condition and treatment plans private, but she wanted you to know.

She wanted you to know because your parents may be too busy juggling everything they’ve got going on to go to the doctor, and maybe you reminding them to go get checked for cancer could possibly lead to an early diagnosis and an easier battle… Or peace of mind in knowing that they’re healthy and there’s nothing to worry about. She wanted you to know why she may not be at as many shows this tour. She’s got an important battle to fight.

Thank you for caring about my family so much that she would want me to share this information with you.

I hope and pray that you never get news like this.

Love you.


I absolutely feel for Taylor right now. I wish I could just give her a hug, a hand to hold, and a shoulder to cry on. Lord knows that is what I needed last year. Since I can’t, my response to her…


First off major hugs and support. This is probably one of THE WORST things to deal with. I have first hand experience here.

It was either late summer, or early fall, it’s kind of a blur at this point when I found out the news: Cancer. Both parents. Simultaneously. I was absolutely bawling. I am honestly not sure 100% what Dad is dealing with, but Mom’s diagnosis was Thyroid cancer. This is the second time I’ve dealt with this with dad. Though the first time was when I was about 3, in the mid-80′s. I don’t remember much of it. Oh and mom had a bit of cancerous cells removed from her back sometime in the 90′s I think. But being 32, and an adult, I just lost it. Hard core. Thank god my bestie knew that if I was calling in the middle of the day it was an emergency and took my call because I could not have dealt with it alone. Even if he did happen to be 1,941 miles (I just Googled the distance) away at the time, in a super duper important production meeting. (Side note: Aren’t besties the bestest?)

Taylor, the road ahead isn’t going to be easy. There will be ups and downs. Even a few lefts and rights. And curve balls you weren’t expecting. I’ve been through friends having major surgery, I had a friend technically die on the operating table…twice (he’s ok now), but the scariest thing ever was hearing that Mom had to have the tumor surgically removed and not being able to be in Phoenix to be with her. The pain, the scared, helpless feelings, they’re very much real. Find someone to talk to. Talk to your mom. Talk to your bestie. Talk to me. (Contact info in the side bar lol.) Talk. To. Someone. It helps. It really does. Hell, write a song about it if you have to. But the worst thing you can do, THE WORST THING is bottle it up.

My mom has sailed through spectacularly with her surgery, her check-ups, and the like. Dad is still doing treatment but is doing well. You didn’t publicly say what kind of cancer it was, which is fine. (Despite what some my say.) Hopefully it was caught in time and she’ll come through this on the other side.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your mom right now.

A friend if you want it, always a fan,


Seriously, I doubt Taylor is ever going to see this but it mades the most sense to write this as if I were writing her a letter in response to her post. Besides who knows if she, an assistant, or some publicist is going through the 120K and counting “notes” that are on the post and might see it since yeah. And hey it could happen! (I also have friends in high places who’ve been known to directly e-mail links to people…as scary as that may be.)
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I would like to thank the Academy…

So you may remember back in the fall, my team and I on WCCO 4 News This Morning won an Upper Midwest Regional Emmy™ for Newscast-Daytime, Markets 1-20. Well… The statue finally got to me. Quite honestly, I’m still in shock and awe that I actually have one in my apartment finally.

So… Because this was not an individual award, and because well, I was kind of actually directing the video feed of the ceremony, there was no chance for me to do something crazy like give a speech or anything. But heeeeeeeeey this is the internet, and well, why not right?


So here it is, the speech I would have given:

First of I would like to thank the Academy. This award means a whole lot to me. There are too many to thank. I couldn’t have done it without the team. Bess, Nikki, Mike, Wade, JT, Ron, Jim, Garrett, Wendy, Tim. My bosses CJ and Gary. My parents. My family. Candace… Love you. Rory for putting up with me. Dr. Havice, Barb, Jen Z. and all the people who taught me TV. Jeannie. We miss you and thanks for the help from beyond the rainbow.

So yeah. There you have it.

Wake Me Up When November Ends

“here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when September ends”

— Green Day “Wake Me Up When September Ends”

A very powerful song by Green Day. It deals with the death of Billie Joe Armstrong’s father. November is the month that I would like to be able to skip over and not have to deal with the pain of November 2012.

This time last year, I was staring straight into the eyes of what would turn out to be the worst month that I have ever had to deal with. For starters, I lost one of the best friends, anchors, reporters and producers that you could ask for. Secondly, I was dealing with a roommate who had just come off of surgery and unknown to me at the time, would officially die for a few seconds on the operating table the 3rd time that he was rushed to the ER because his incisions had re-opened. Throw on top of that a Presidential election, Sweeps, and the death of an aunt that I wasn’t especially close to on my mom’s side of the family, and you can see why I was very emotionally distraught
by Thanksgiving.

“And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind”

— Sir Elton John “Candle in the Wind”

Probably the biggest reason that I would love to just skip over November this year is the fact that it has been one year since we lost Jeannie.   Quite honestly, this is probably the hardest part of this for me to write. I can’t believe that not only is she really gone, but that it has been a year already since I got the devastating news. Thankfully, I will say, she had enough sense to actually pass while I was distracted with directing WCCO 4 News at 10 that night. It’s been an especially tough year for me because of this, because there were so many things that happened to me this year where she would have been the first television friend I would have messaged on Facebook. But… I know that she is looking down on and helping all of her friends with their newscasts every day.

And I’m not joking when I say it… I really miss you Jeannie. And, if I haven’t said it enough this year, thank you for all of the help that you have given me.

“Everybody hurts
Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts
Don’t throw your hand, oh no

Don’t throw your hand
If you feel like you’re alone
No, no, no, you are not alone”

— REM “Everybody Hurts”

The second part of why November officially sucks for me is nearly losing a friend / roommate to what for any other person would have been a routine procedure. You really don’t need all the gory details. But when you get a call from your neighbor that your roommate was rushed to the ER, they took him for emergency surgery, and oh yeah…she has no idea where in the hospital he is…it’s wicked stressful. On and add to all of that the part where no one prepared me to find him hooked up to a ventilator when I finally got to see him the next morning. Or you know, the part where he technically died. Twice.

The good news, is that he is doing much better today.

“Time keeps on slippin’, slippin’, slippin’
Into the future”

— The Steve Miller Band “Fly Like an Eagle”

I still can’t believe that it’s been a year already since all of this happened. It seems like just yesterday Rory and I were talking about his plan to take over the world, and I was prodding Jeannie that she needed to come up to the Cities and take a picture with the Mary Richards statue on Nicollet Mall. I guess time really does keep slipping into the future.

Inaugural 2013: I think it may have lit a spark

So I’ve been watching coverage all day of the inauguration of President Obama for his 2nd term in office.  Even though I am watching the 2013 festivities from afar, I still think this is the most awesome thing that I’ve seen (so far) this year.

But….  I’ve also done a little bit of thinking this morning.  I watched most of this coverage from the cold, dark depths of News Control.  A friend’s tweet during the actual swearing in of the President saying how that attending a ceremony is now something on her bucket list turned on a lightbulb in my head.  I want to direct events like this.

Many of you know, whether it’s by conversations that I’ve been getting back into that funk of hating day-to-day news coverage.  Though, many of you also know that one of the things I look forward to every week is the Sunday morning political show that I usually direct.  This…this is the kind of thing that I love to do.  Quite honestly.  I know several people in recent days have asked me “what exactly do you want to do in TV?”  I can now very much point to this and say “that.”

I very much have always loved working the “scripted but unscripted” kinds of things.  And I’ve always been one who signed up to do them when I could.  And I’ve been pretty good at them when I have had to do them.  Yes, there’s always that big nervousness that comes along with it, but that’s live television.  I still get that when I go into my regular newscasts, especially on breaking news days.  Honestly, I’d almost be worried if I didn’t.  I think some of that is good.  Then again, I am my worst critic and significantly harder on myself for mistakes than anyone has ever been.  But still, there is a certain amount of satisfaction that also goes along with these sorts of events…  You’re indirectly a part of history.  And well, that’s kinda cool to think about.

Now… Don’t get me wrong.  Very few people will ever grace the television trucks that produce this kind of programming.  And even working for a network-owned station, knowing some people inside the network news divisions, people in DC, etc. I stand a small, small chance of ever doing something like this.  I’m a small fish in a very, very large ocean of talent.  The people who hire for these sorts of things….they very much are unlikely to even know who I am.  Of course, I may be completely and entirely wrong here too.  I have been proven wrong in this realm before.  Just recently in fact.  So it’ll be interesting to see when certain friends (might thanks to the stupid Facebook sorting hat…oops…algorithms) see this post.

Now.  Time to watch the parade!

p.s.  I toyed with placing links to my demo & resume here.  I opted against it, for now, but hey, if you want one, feel free to email or Facebook me.

My thoughts on “Dating Question: What Is a Man?”

So Jessica twittered a link to an article on Yahoo: “Dating Question: What Is a Man?”. I’m reading the article and the first thing that comes to my mind is “hmm… this just seems like it’s going to be one of those strictly stereotypical views on the subject.” Honesty, it is and it isn’t. So let’s break it down. As bad of an example as I may be, let’s compare myself to this article.

  • Strike one. I don’t carry cash. Well, sometimes I do, but I prefer to use my debit card. It’s for the simple reason of having less cash on you means that there’s less chance of losing it. And really, by using the card you kind of have to think “can I really afford this?” Yeah I know, not the first thing you’d expect to hear, because you know, “I’m a man, men make money, blah blah blah.” I don’t make that much money. It has to be rationed accordingly. Why do you think I drive a *gasp* base model Toyota and don’t have all the flashy new toys?
  • Strike two. I can’t build or repair shit. Well.. I can build a computer. And I can fix one. But other than that, I’m sort of lost when it comes to the whole “use of tools” that society has deemed I should know. Last time I tried to hang something it ended up being crooked. And to borrow a line from my grandmother, I can’t draw a straight line with a ruler.
  • And wow, I strike out for the third time, right in the opening paragraph of the article. I can’t ever find anything good on TV. Really, it’s why I don’t watch TV. Wait, what? This coming from the guy who makes his living off, um, TV. No seriously, outside of Dollhouse, Legend of the Seeker, Ghost Hunters and The Simpsons, I really don’t watch TV.
  • Crap. This is where I run out of strikes. I guess.. Because seriously? Kung-fu? I don’t do kung-fu. I have no desire to kung-fu.
  • And I’ve never bought “a man is his job.” Yes, I consider myself a television production expert, a newscast director, editor, etc. but those are all career related terms. I’m don’t consider myself to be some sort of domestic diva when I’m cleaning around here. Nor do I even claim to be some sort of race-car driver when I cruising down the Beltline.

On the plus side I can cook eggs. And I’m more than happy to spread knowledge, espcially when it’s related to geeky things, or on the correct ways to make TV. Honestly, at work I’m more than happy to answer the questions the interns have, even as wild of questions as they may be sometimes. I’ve known people in the past who would rather not have anything to do with them.

486 words just off the intro to the list? Crap.

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Jonathan Coulton, and Paul & Storm, concert from last night.

Well, I don’t win any kind of award, because this is only #2 for me seeing JoCo. As always, it was a good show, allbeit, quite depressing song filled. Thanks twitter. Oh well, what can I say, I did request “Famous Blue Raincoat“. Heh. Yeah, I contributed to that. Thankfully, even though requested, he didn’t play Freebird, or one of the longest songs I think is out there (and actually a good, but equally depressing song), the Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald. Though, after the fact, Dave realized he should have requested “Curl“, and I should have requested “Dance, Soterios Johnson, Dance.” Oh well. It was still a good show. And honestly, people, why do you request things like “Skullcrusher Mountain“, “Still Alive” (end song from Portal, no link, sorry), or “First of May” (song NSFW)? He’ll play those anyway! It’s like asking Rush to play “Tom Sawyer” at one of their shows.

Paul and Storm were the opening band (insert joke here because that’s also their first song.) They also were, at points, JoCo’s back-up band. They’re funny, and even though I gave them a ton of crap on Twitter, I did enjoy that part of the night. Though guys, a new setlist would be helpful. It was the exact same show that I saw last year. New = Good.

Here’s some pictures and a video, all shot with my BlackBerry, so I apologize for the quality:

Clip of Ikea (It won’t embed for some reason. Oh well.)

But yeah, fun night overall. Oh..and Monty’s pancakes for dinner = yum. 🙂


Looking Ahead to 2009

I got this idea from a friend of mine’s blog post. Those who know me, know full well I don’t tend believe in a lot of this stuff. I don’t know why, but it’s always seemed, well, a bit BS to me. How can some writer somewhere know what’s going to happen to me this year? Or be able to predict it? Or know me based on my sign? But anyway, I went over to Yahoo to see what this story was, and well, it kind of got me thinking a bit.

As a Gemini, you possess an amazing ability to see dualities — the pros and cons of situations as change approaches — and to quickly and efficiently think them through before making any decisions. In 2009, you dare to look deeply into your desires, regenerate self-awareness and recognize psychological ambiguities. This will bring balance into your home and family life. Pay attention to the details as you bring your inner and outer life into harmony. And be sure to enjoy the changes occurring within you!

As you come to terms with yourself, you are able to see a more fulfilling purpose in life, and your field of experience broadens. Focus on matters that affect you most deeply and, like magic, your life will become easier and things will seem to take care of themselves. You have all the necessary resources and motivation to make tangible changes and achieve results this year.

Toward the end of the year, you’ll have time to enjoy yourself, and to bask in a great sense of accomplishment. With the expansive and idealistic energy flowing throughout 2009, Gemini is very comfortable in this age of new awareness and high-mindedness.

You know… I’m not at all entirely sure what this all means. Maybe I need Candace or someone more in-tune to help me decipher it all.